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He’s faithful to my heart.

Glory to the righteous one.

G-d, I’m not sure how to get everything or anything in words.

I hurt and you heal… That’s just how it’s always been. Lord, You’ve always been there for me even after all the selfish mistakes I’ve made. You are a forgiving G-d. I don’t know why life take turns and makes you go down paths that you have never even come across. I don’t know why I feel this need inside me to make sure someone is there with me holding my hand. It doesn’t make sense if I knew that I’d have to trust you through this one. Then why is it hard? Why do I constantly have to fight the pain of it all?

“Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way. If you don’t know what you’re doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You’ll get his help, and won’t be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought. People who “worry their prayers” are like wind-whipped waves.” – James 1.2-6

((Are you kidding me G-d?       ………a gift?

So what then? It’s time to live out our faith. G-d knows what He is doing even when we are in the middle of a storm. The only thing I can gather from this portion of my love letter is to stick it out. G-d, sometimes I don’t want to, so I guess I’ll have to choose again today to trust You with it.

Dear Father, I don’t know what I’m doing, help my heart to calm down and not worry about my life. I don’t want to be flaky but I want to be taught by the master how to be faithful.

“Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. 34“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”

– Matthew 6.33-34

Command: Don’t worry about missing out.

Promise: You’ll find ALL your everyday human concerts will be met.

Lord, help me trust YOUR timing… and help my heart to understand when my brain is the only thing that knows what is right.